Embracing the Messiness of Growth: A Call to Authentic Connection

Why are we all striving to have everything figured out? Why do we place such an expectation on ourselves to reach a level of consciousness where we can no longer act from the unhealed parts of ourselves? I would rather hear someone’s truth in its raw, messy form than see them try to present a perfectly put-together version of themselves. It honestly bothers me how much emphasis people place on becoming fully grounded, integrated beings, as though we must never react or show vulnerability. At this stage of our evolution, it’s okay not to have everything figured out. We’re all in the process of working through it. The people who help us on this journey should do so without needing space from us or avoiding connection for fear of not showing up "appropriately." What we need are corrective experiences with others—people from our soul families—who help us navigate our struggles.

At times, when I don’t show up 100% perfect and have a problem with someone’s actions, I often find myself pushed away because of the vulnerability I carry. I’m pushed into survival mode and expected to suppress my emotions and ground them. But how is it even possible to ground emotion in that moment? The people I loved and trusted most have turned their backs on me when I needed them to provide the corrective experience I longed for. I simply needed to be loved.

A corrective experience isn’t about setting boundaries like our parents did; it’s about treating others with the same respect and compassion we would show our inner child—not because they necessarily deserve it, but because we do. It doesn’t mean that the corrective experience needs to happen immediately, but the intention behind your words should come from a place of sincerity. Instead of dismissing, trying to control, or avoiding, we could simply say, “I hear you, and I believe your emotions are valid. Thank you for sharing them with me. I’m a bit caught up in the physical right now, but when I have the space to support you, I’ll be there. In the meantime, is there someone else you trust to lean on until I can fully show up for you?” If you're triggered by someone’s emotions, it’s okay to be open and honest with them—without holding back—knowing that they share the same desire to care for your inner child as you do for theirs. When someone tries to project their insecurities onto another, it deepens the karmic ties of our pasts.

So, how can we determine if someone is truly worthy of our time and energy, especially when it comes to supporting their inner child in moments of need? The answer lies in what we feel deep within our hearts. That connection often ties back to the emotions we’ve experienced in this lifetime—and perhaps even in past ones. When we suppress our emotions because of unhealed wounds, we risk pushing away the very people who offer the love we missed out on as children. And often, we aren’t even aware that we’re repeating the same cycle.

Only a soul who has done the work to reach a certain level of consciousness can truly see others for who they are, without their past experiences interfering in the present moment. 

When we choose to see each mishap as an opportunity for growth rather than a mistake to be projected or suppressed, we shape our journey for the better. At times, we all need to play the victim in our own stories. How we respond to that pain depends on the depth of our soul connection with others. If resolution is possible, an honest, unfiltered conversation is essential. In this space, all emotions—big or small—are shared and understood through the perspective of our higher selves, allowing room for the unhealed wounds of our inner child to surface and be acknowledged.

It’s okay to take time before this moment of resolution comes to fruition—not just because healing is needed, but because soul growth must take place first. This growth is essential for us to have the conversation with clarity and understanding. It may involve making changes to our environment that support old patterns or letting go of habits we cling to, which may be hindering our evolution by numbing our progress.

I’ve come to realize that God doesn’t judge us based on the parts of ourselves that surface, or even how we respond. In fact, God doesn’t judge us at all. If we all acted like God, we would embrace every part of ourselves, no matter how messy, recognizing that what is being expressed comes from the human experience we all share. To welcome raw emotion with vulnerability is to not shy away when someone isn’t fully grounded or integrated, but to embrace them with open arms. We should sit with them, take the time—no matter how busy or late—and hold space for them because we see them for who they truly are, having recognized that same truth within ourselves.

I understand that not many who walk this earth have the same level of understanding that I have reached, but I hold hope that the path I’m paving will lead us all home. I’m honored to be one of the first to walk into liberation.

Loyalty isn’t something that’s earned; it’s felt through the soul exchange of energy.

To push away the high priestess of this time is truly unworthy, and I will not settle for less than humanity deserves, leading by example and sharing my voice, no matter how it may look to others.

I stand true in my authenticity and my need to be loved in moments of struggle.

Yes, my divine mother and father have now united due to circumstances in my life, and without them, I wouldn’t have this clarity. For that, I am truly grateful for human conflict and emotion. 

I will not shame myself for the emotions I’ve expressed, no matter how outlandish or hurtful they may have seemed to others. It is not my responsibility to make people comfortable in this life; it is my job to illuminate their shadows. However, I recognize that this must be done in the most loving way possible and I take responsibility for not channeling the energy correctly. Everything I’ve said and done has always come from a place of love, but I’m still learning how to properly express my emotions. I’m not ashamed to admit that, and that doesn’t determine the level of my consciousness or soul evolution. 

The hierarchy of the new world order was determined long before we were brought to earth, and it’s time that all step into their roles with humbleness. 

If you believe you have it all figured out, I encourage you to check in with yourself again. Our egos can cloud our perception, and our trauma can distort our reality. If we aren’t constantly examining both, while staying connected to our hearts and soul, then we are not truly awakening.

This is no longer an individual process but a collective one. 

It’s time to unite.